THE UNSEEN TRUTH - Love Behind The Cameras (A PSH & JKS Fanfic)

Hello everyone! I'm posting my fanfic here too! The first one I'll be posting is the latest one.. then will post the older ones next. Hope you will like it! Komawo! :D

“Aish Jang Keun Suk!” Shin Hye exclaimed as she messed up her hair in annoyance.

She has been monitoring Keun Suk’s tweet and with the looks of it, she knew Keun Suk will be partying all night again. Her boyfriend has been invited to Bi Rain’s concert in Busan. And she can tolerate anything he does, except his over-drinking. She understands this makes him happy but she also know it’s bad for him so she is bothered.

She doesn’t feel right so she calls him. One ring.

“Yoboseyo.. chagiya?“

Shin Hye hears the beat of the music in the background. Hah! It’s a miracle he answered with just one ring. She thought.

“Jang Keun Suk!” were the first words that came out of her mouth. “Are you drinking yourself to death again?”

“Shin Hye-ah.. nae sarang…“

Oh yes, he is tipsy now. Shin Hye realized from the tone of his voice.

“..I’m okay, chagiya. Are you going to be an ahjumma tonight?” Keun Suk always gets frustrated with the ahjummas nagging him of his drinking habit.

Shin Hye knows he hates those ahjumma nagger fans of him so she did not start anything that will make him upset, especially that this is the first time in years that he spent time with Rain again. She made sure she just sounded concerned.

“Ani chagiya. I’m just worried you know…”

“Aww.. I know Shin Hye-ah. Don’t worry, I won’t drink too much and I also won’t do anything stupid.”

“Keun Suk-ah!”

Shin Hye thought she heard Bi Rain’s voice in the background.

“Hyung!” Keun Suk acknowledged.

“C’mon Keun Suk-ah. We are partyin’ and you are talking on your phone?!” Rain walked over to where he was. “Whom are you talking to that you looked like a love-sick puppy, you can’t put it down?” Suddenly, Rain grabbed Keun Suk’s phone from him.

“No! Hyung…” But it was too late.

Not plenty of Korean Celebrities know about him and Shin Hye & Rain is included in that list.

“Yoboseyo…“

Shin Hye felt her heart beat faster.

“Annyeonghaseyo Oppa…“

Rain thought that voice sounded familiar. “Shin Hye-ssi? Park Shin Hye?”

“Nae, Bi Oppa.” Shin Hye said with a smile but all too nervous. “It’s me, Shin Hye.”

Rain punched Keun Suk lightly on his arm and laughed. “So, the rumors are true, huh?” He said while staring at Keun Suk with his teasing look.

Keun Suk nodded and smiled sheepishly.

“Nae Oppa.” Shin Hye replied. “Yes, it’s true.. but I hope this is going to be just between the three of us Oppa?” She pleaded.

“Your secret is safe with me, Shin Hye-ah.” Rain glanced at Keun Suk while he answered Shin Hye.

“Kamsahmnida Bi Oppa.”

“Well, here’s Keun Suk. And don’t you worry, I’ll take care of this punk!”

Keun Suk snickered at Rain’s statement and then met his hand in the air as his Bi Hyung gestured a hi-five. “He is behaving so far! Hahaha!”

Keun Suk forcefully shut his eyes and looked away from Rain and whispered “Aish, Hyung! Now I’m so dead!” Keun Suk very well know how jealous Shin Hye can get though he also knows that in her heart, she is aware that he looks only at her.

Shin Hye snickered because she heard Keun Suk’s loud “Hyung!” in the background. She trusts him no matter what she hears about him. She can’t explain but somehow their understanding and trust is deeper than what people see or think.

“Oh Oppa, please make sure that he does.” Shin Hye teased. “Oh and please promise me one thing more Oppa.”

“Mwo?“

“Please don’t make Keun Suk Oppa drink too much.” Her voice filled with worry. “That boy is hard-headed and won’t listen when it comes to talks about his drinking.”

“Will do, Shin Hye-ah. If he over-drinks, I’ll pommel his head!”

“Hahaha!” She laughed.

“Man! You are so cute, Park Shin Hye!”

“Hyung!” Keun Suk butted in. “Uhm.. I think you are forgetting that you’re talking to MY GIRL.” Keun Suk teased but with a tinge of jealousy in his voice.

Rain punched him lightly on the arm again. “I know you punk!” He turned to Shin Hye on the phone. “Shin Hye-ah, I’ll give the phone back to Keun Suk now. He’s starting to give me his dagger looks.”

Shin Hye smiled imagining how Keun Suk looked with the last thing Rain said. “Ahrasso Oppa.”

Rain handed the phone to Keun Suk. Then he gave him a slight pat on his shoulder and started to walk away. “You’re one hell of a lucky guy, Jang Keun Suk.” Rain whispered to his dongsaeng. Keun Suk looked back at him and then they both smiled.

“Yoboseyo, chagiya…“

“Chagiya, please tell me you’ll be fine and won’t get drunk. And I mean super duper drunk, puhleez?” Shin Hye asked him in her cutest voice.

“Don’t you worry, nae sarang. I’ll take good care of myself.”

“Yakso?”

“Yakso!” Keun Suk placed his hand on top of his heart.

“Ahrasso, I’ll take your word for it.” Shin Hye trusts him. “You go now and be with Bi Oppa. I’ll see you when you get back here in Seoul okay.”

“Nae, chagiya. You sleep well and dream of me okay.” He teased. “Saranghae Yomonhi chagiya.”

“Ahra. I love you too Oppa… forever. Annyeong!”

**the next morning**

“I’m coming!” Shin Hye yelled as she ran to the door when she heard the door bell.

“Hello beautiful.” Keun Suk waved at her so cutely when she opened the door.

“Oppa!“

“Missed me?” Keun Suk gave her a peck on the cheek and he placed his arms around her shoulder as he walked in. Yes I did Oppa.. I badly missed you. Shin Hye’s heart whispered.

Shin Hye closed the door behind them. “I thought you’ll see me after you’ve gone home.”

Keun Suk shook his head. “I miss you so much I had to see you first.” He looked from left to right then asked “Where is Omma and Appa? It looks like you are alone?” Then he gazed at Shin Hye and moved his eyebrow up and down.

Shin Hye punched him on his tummy. “Ouch” Keun Suk blurted out loud.

“You…I know that look!” Then she pinched him again on his belly and smiled. “They went out for a while, wae?“

“Ani…was just asking.. I wanted to say hi.” Then he held his tummy again with a wrinkled look on his face. “Mwo? I wasn’t implying anything.” showing Shin Hye his forced but teasing smile.

Shin Hye thought Keun Suk was kidding when he shouted but she saw that he was still holding his tummy while they walked towards the couch in the living room.

“Oppa, kwenchana?” She looked at Keun Suk seriously.

Keun Suk nodded. “Kwenchana.”

Shin Hye shook her head. “Ani. You look pale.” And as she said that, Keun Suk lost his balance they almost fell on the floor. Good thing Shin Hye was holding his hand tightly.

“OMO! Oppa! You’re not alright. Sit down.”

As he sat, Keun Suk felt he was gonna throw up anytime soon that he ran towards the bathroom instead.

“Oppa…” Shin Hye looked very worried this time. She hurriedly followed him to the bathroom. The next scene she saw was Keun Suk slumped on the floor, hugging the toilet bowl.

Shin Hye sighed then walked inside, kneeled beside Keun Suk and started to caress his back. Keun Suk gagged again, and Shin Hye held his hair away from his face as he leaned over to blow. She continued to caress his back then Shin Hye said “You promised me you’ll take care of yourself, didn’t you?”

Keun Suk just nodded. He knew Shin Hye was right again.

“You did? Look at you now.” Shin Hye couldn’t help but feel angry at Keun Suk a little. She took some tissue off the rack and handed it over to Keun Suk. She lifted his shirt, inserted her hand underneath, and caressed his back once again. Then, Keun Suk stood up and gargled some water to flush everything out.

“Do you feel better now Oppa?“

Keun Suk wiped her mouth, sat on the toilet bowl, threw the tissue in the trash and said “Nae. Kwenchana.”

“You sure?”

He nodded. “Uhm.”

“Kaja.” Shin Hye helped him stand up from where he was then she slid her arm around his waist and led him to the couch. Once seated, she made sure Keun Suk sat comfortably.

“Chankaman, Oppa. Don’t you move a muscle.” Shin Hye ran towards her room and when she came back she was holding two big pillows. Bongji and Nori were playing at Keun Suk’s foot but he was too weak to lean over and pat them. “Aww.. Bongji! Nori! You can play with Daddy later, okay. He is not feeling well.” Shin Hye leaned over and caressed her puppies back.

“Here Oppa.” She plumped up one of the pillows. “Lie down and rest for a while.” She plumped up the other pillow and placed it on Keun Suk’s side. Then, she sat beside him and placed her arms over his waist. She looked at him with loving yet worried eyes. “Are you really okay, Oppa?” She gently moved away a wisp of his hair on his face.

Keun Suk knew how worried Shin Hye is so she assured her. “Nae Chagiya. Jeongmal kwenchana. It’s just a hang over, I guess.” He took her hand and held it tight. “And I feel much better now because it’s you who’s taking care of me.”

Shin Hye leaned over to him and gave Keun Suk a quick kiss on the lips and then hugged him tight. She whispered in his ear “You scared the hell out of me there for a second.”

“Mianhe, Shin Hye-ah. I promise…”

He wasn’t even done with what he was saying when Shin Hye suddenly lifted her head and said “Eeew! I totally forgot you just barfed and I kissed you.” Shin Hye wiped her mouth and wrinkled her forehead like how Go Mi Nam does.

Keun Suk knew she was kidding. “Ya!“

Shin Hye laughed out loud. “I’m kidding Oppa! You know I’ll kiss you no matter what.. anytime, anyday.”

Keun Suk felt shivers. “Aigoo….“

“Ya! You.. you thought you’re off the hook eh.” Shin Hye dilated her eyes as she leaned over to him. “We will go to the doctor and have you checked from top to bottom…inside out!”

Keun Suk was about to say “Ye…” but Shin Hye stopped him. “Ah-ah! I won’t take no for an answer!” She placed her hand over his mouth. “That is the only way for me to be at peace, okay.”

Keun Suk smelled and kissed the hand covering his mouth. “Ahrasso.” He smiled. Why does she sound like my mom just now?

“In the meantime, you just lie there and rest while I finish the Kimchi Jalgae I was cooking for you before you came, okay.” Shin Hye tapped the tip of his nose and then stood up.

Keun Suk stopped her before she walked away further by holding her hand. He kissed it. Keun Suk was almost to tears when he said “I love you… I love you more each day. Promise me we will stay this way forever.”

Shin Hye clasped her hand over the hand that was holding hers. “Mero mero Keun Suk Oppa…” She looked at him with loving eyes with her sweetest smile. “Yakso, we will be like this forever… I’ll be yours forever.. and ever.. and ever…”

Shin Hye was continuously saying “and ever” that Keun Suk laughed. “Aigoo! This is why I love you too much! Come here!” Then he pulled her down close to him, lifted his head and tasted the plump red lips that was calling him since he got here.

sis pam, thanks so very very much for your fanfic, i really am addicted to your fanfic and never get enough of it. i read and reread when i miss our dear couple. your fanfic seems so real. :thumbs up: :thank you: :panda love:

thanks pam for the wonderful fanfic :)
more to come!

hi Pam!!

finally you're here!! your FF was the first fanfic i read....

thanks for posting them here...looking forward to the more "juicy" chapters..LOLLL

awww mero mero your FF ms Pam as always
thank you for sharing

Here is the latest chapter! To Cass and Demi...this is a prelude to the ones I'll dedicate to you!

SURPRISES

Japan is beautiful… it has always been beautiful. Yet today, I feel the beauty of Japan is not the way it used to be. Maybe because I considered it beautiful because of the memories I made here with one person…Shin Hye. This is our place… this is where our love blossomed. And today, I am missing Shin Hye so bad. Heck, I’ve been missing her since the day I set my foot in Haneda yesterday. I guess it’s because of how we parted a couple of days ago…

~0~

“Oneul wae gu rae (What’s wrong with you today)? You have been silent all day. You didn’t answer my calls nor replied to my text messages. Wae? Did I do something wrong again?” I said catching my breath as I gain on her.

Shin Hye continued to pedal on Pixie, the bike I got for her… especially made for her. She cherishes Pixie so much nowadays, that sometimes, I even get jealous of it.

She pedaled faster than she normally does. Usually, we get to talk about how beautiful the night is at the Han River hand in hand while biking. We even sometimes talk about the stars. Mushy, yes. But as long as I’m with her, I don’t care.

“Shin Hye-ah” I yelled as I pedaled double-time. I made sure I’d stop in front of her, so she won’t have a reason to ignore me. I hurriedly biked along and when I over-took her, I pressed on the break hard then used my foot, making sure I stood before her way.

The screech of her break was so loud, it echoed the entire park.

“Are you out of your mind, Jang Keun Suk!?!” Shin Hye exclaimed wearing that scared but worried look on her face. “Pabo! I could’ve hit you!”

“Well, at least you’re not ignoring me anymore. Now, will you talk to me?” She looked at me straight in the eyes and then she let go of Pixie, threw her down on the ground and walked away. She sat down far away in one corner, tucked her legs near her chest, and slumped her face on her knees. A sulking face completed her look.

I grinned realizing how cute she looked right now and in one minute I was tempted to get my phone from my pocket and take a photo of her only realizing it was not a good time in the next. I was still clueless why she is wearing this mood, so I walked towards her and imitated how she sat then asked “Wae? Why are you killing me with your silence the whole day, Park Shin Hye?”

She turned to me and sighed, then went back to her original position. “You’re gonna leave for Japan tomorrow right?”

I nodded but never took my eye off her, sending the message “So?” to her.

“And I see you are all so happy because you are leaving with Geun Young Eonnie. ” She looked further away, staring straight at the Han.

“Ha ha ha ha!” I couldn’t help but laugh out loud. “Is that it? Is that why your giving me the cold shoulder all day?”

Shin Hye stared at me with her dagger look. “And you think it’s funny?”

I moved closer to her, encircled my arms around her and kissed her temple. She tried to wriggle loose but failed. “Let go! I’m not in the mood to be lovey-dovey with you tonight.” Shin Hye was fighting her tears.

“Dont’ even dare try to let go for I won’t let you.” I hugged her tighter. “For your information Park Shin Hye, I’m not jumping up and down about this trip to Japan this time. And you clearly know the reason why.”

I shifted my position, pushed myself closer to her and then put both of my legs around her so she was trapped and nowhere to go. Our faces were just an inch away so Shin Hye looked away to her left. “Ya!” I gently held her chin and made her face me. “Chagi, look at me.” She slowly lifted her head.

“There’s nothing to worry about, you know that. Geun Young-ah is not a threat…was never a threat. Haven’t I told you that before?”

Shin Hye nodded.

“You know very well that Geun Young-ah and I are simply just friends. PLATONIC. That’s it.” I found her jealousy so sweet instead of irritating, I gave her my biggest smile. “You know these eyes and heart are just meant for you and I’ve locked it and gave you the key a long time ago, remember?”

Shin Hye pushed herself towards me, leaned over and hugged me tightly. “Mianhe, Chagi. The fear and worry I had a year ago just went back and enveloped me all over again no matter how much I fight it.”

I caressed her hair and whispered to her ear “That’s because you love me…I know,” and then I kissed her on the cheek. That move won me the tiniest pinch I ever got in my entire life. “Aw!” I screamed but was laughing.

“Ya!” She stood up and then I saw the prettiest smile she ever gave me. “Who told you I LOVE YOU?” I knew she thought of something to get back at me…I knew from the way she smiled. “I JUST DON’T LOVE YOU…I LOVE YOU VERY VERY MUCH.” And while she was saying that, she was walking towards me in a very sexy way. And then she planted a hot kiss on my lips. Shin Hye didn’t even care that there were a few people at the park too and a couple of them were starting to notice us.

“Uhm..that is nice.” I continued to kiss her after breaking it for a second. “But I think that couple over at our right is looking at us.”

“Mwo?!” she exclaimed as she looked around while leaving pecks on my lips. “Why did you tell me just now?!” Pali! Let’s take Pixie and…” Shin Hye looked at me with wondering eyes. “What do you call your bike anyway?”

“Mwo? My bike? Name?” I stood there for a second, for honestly, I didn’t call my bike anything. It’s just a plain old bike for me. So I just thought of the first thing that popped in my head. “I call her… Dweji Tokki.” And I snickered as I turned to face her.

“What?!? So I am a bicycle now?”

“Yup! Dweji Tokki. That’s why she is important to me like you are.” I said pinching her cheek.

“Aigoo… stop pulling my leg will you?” She piched me back then walked to get Pixie.

“I’m not!” I ran after her and grabbed her hand. “Ya! Chagi.” I whispered. ” Let’s just act normal like we didn’t notice them noticing us.”

So we casually walked to where our bikes were and then I told her, “By the way, I’m not leaving tomorrow. I’m flying the next day.” Then turned to her, stuck my tongue out and ran.

“Mwo?! Why you… Ya! Jang Keun Suk! Why didn’t you tell me earlier? You just let me… aargggh!” Shin Hye was so cute as she ran after me this time but I was already on my bike ready to pedal when she gained on me. “Catch me if you can Chagi!” Let’s see if you win our bike race this time!” And then I was off, standing up while pedaling Dweji Tokki.

“Ya! Cheater!” Shin Hye yelled but I slowed down my pace without her noticing so she can catch up with me and we can ride hand in hand together again.

~0~

“Aish! That’s it!” And then I was about to press 1 on my phone when I was interrupted by a knock on my door. It was my mom.

“Omma, waeyo?” I asked wondering why she is wearing a big smile on her face.

“I got a suprise for you… well, actually, you have to thank your Appa for this.”

Now that got me more curious and anxious. Dad is not the type who’d have a suprise off his sleeve.

“What is it Mom?”

“Here…” she handed me her phone.

I looked at her with questions in my eyes then said “Yoboseyo?” My heart beat faster.

“Hello Oppa. Missed me?” It was Shin Hye!

“Chagiya!” Hearing her voice put back the smile on my face.

“Nae Oppa.”

“Ya! You’re calling my mom now?”

Omma was just sitting at the couch adoring what she sees, enjoying hearing what she hears.

“Haha! Oppa, Eomoni.. well Abeoji & Eomoni.. They called me to tell me they’re inviting me for your dad’s birthday.”

Oh please say yes, Shin Hye. “Well??”

“Mainhe Oppa… I got plans already and I just can’t back out of it and say no..”

I just felt a bucket of ice-cold water was poured all over me. “Oh, I see.”

And then I thought I heard her snicker. “Aigoo…why are you like me now…oh so gullible?”

“Huh?”

“I can’t say no to my plans of packing and going to Japan to meet Jason.”

“Jason..my piggy manager Jason?” I turned around and looked at my mom with wide eyes who, in return, just can’t help but giggle.

“Your Dad already sent Jason to pick Shin Hye up. He is on his way to the airport now.”

Why that pig just tricked me?!

“And when did you learn to play with me like that, Chagi?” I giggled.

“I learned from the best teacher.” Shin Hye was referring to me. “I’ll see you in a couple of hours Oppa. Can’t wait to be with you.”

“Me too Chagi. I miss you so much. Hurry will yah? But take care okay?”

“Ahrasso Oppa. Annyeong!“

“Bye Shin Hye-ah”

I handed back my mom’s phone to her and then I held her hand. “Kamsahmnida Omma. Where’s Appa? I’d like to thank him.”

“Oh, he is out Keun Suk. You can just call or text him. I’ll go ahead now. I have to prepare something.”

“Nae Omma.” Then I gave her a kiss. “I’ll see you later.”

After my mom left, I called my dad.

“Yoboseyo Appa…”

“Oh son, wae? Is there something I can do for you?”

“Ani Appa. I just want to thank you for going out your way inviting Shin Hye for your birthday. Kamsahmnida.”

“Ah.. you’re welcome Keun Suk, but that was nothing. I just felt she should be here since I see you have been anxious. She is like family anyway.”

I felt my heart skipped hearing Dad say that.. “Thanks again Dad. I’ll go now. Bye.”

An hour has passed and I was anxious. Why is the time moving so slow?

I decided to message Jason.

“Ya.. is she there yet?”

“Don’t Fret, Keun Suk. She’ll be here in no time. Check out my weibo.”

And so I did. I got what he meant. And I replied “I just want to turn one obsession Jason.. I hope she just arrived.“

Before our FM started, Jason called me. “Ya, Keun Suk. I just got word. Shin Hye’s not coming anymore. Something came up back home.”

What?! “Are you sure? She should’ve called me. My show is going to start in a few minutes so I can’t argue with you right now.. I’ll talk to you later… ask my mom what happened.” I remember browsing the internet earlier and saw her on a photo with Hong Ki and the rest of the F.T. Island. Is she abandoning me for Hong Ki?

I went on with the show and was happy that there were a lot of people. But my heart wasn’t just in it for I was thinking what Jason told me before we started.

I was staring at my phone during the intermission contemplating if I should call her. I was kinda upset and a little mad and I might start a fight so I was thinking hard if I should. Suddenly, I was surprised of the hands that covered my eyes.

“What the…?” I exclaimed and then touched the hands that were covering my eyes. I think I know who these hands belong to. I told myself. “Shin Hye?!”

She released her hands and wrapped her arms around my neck and gave me a quick kiss on the cheek. “Got ya!”

“That piggy told me you weren’t coming anymore.” I looked around for Jason and when my eyes saw where he was, gave him a sharp look.

“Oppa, stop calling Jason piggy…teehee,” Shin Hye caressed my arms. “Well, we tricked you, him and I. I dunno why, but I was in the mood to play with ya. Mianhe...” She kissed me on the cheeks again.

Someone called and told that the show is gonna start again in a few minutes.

I held her hand tight.”I have to go Chagi but stay with Jason here okay.” I walked out of my dressing room then walked back as I wanted to have a last look at her before I go on stage. I just couldn’t help it so I ran inside then gave her a quick kiss on the lips and then I told her. “You are gonna get your punishment after the show is done.” then I ran outside.

She smiled. “I love you!” she shouted then gave me a flying kiss.

I peeped through the door and said “I love you more!” and winked.

Sis Pam: I'm dying, yr ff is so real. Loving it. Pls keep them coming I'm one of yr fans

**This chapter was inspired by a text message I sent my good ol’ buddy Demi the other day. So I dedicate this to her and to Cassie… Love you sisters!**

ACCEPTANCE

I’m missing you… just when I thought I was over you. I’ve been thinking about you lately… I even said hi to you in a text message a couple of weeks ago but I got no reply. I haven’t gone to see you like what we have talked about months ago… maybe because I felt it’s just a waste of time from my end. But… lately, I wanna see you… even praying we’d bump into each other in Shinsadong or Myeongdong. Pabo eh? But maybe I was just scared… scared of rejection… again. But what if that rejection can take this helmet off my head? Mwo yah? Am I going back to square one and starting over again? Why haven’t I learned my lesson?

Our last meeting is still vivid in my head… Japan. Marry Me Mary FM. I was happy to go to Japan that time because it was a chance for us to be together once again. And though I know your heart belongs to someone else and wouldn’t want to be released from its chains, deep in my heart, it gave me hope… hope that I might be able to do something to change your mind and eventually make you have a change of heart. But since day 1 of our Japan stint, disappointment has been my companion. I flew alone, when I anticipated that we would go together.. Then, as soon as you landed in Japan the next day, your phone was like your twin. Turbo-tweeting to your eels & non-stop texting to HER. No matter what I do.. no matter how I catch your attention, you’d still end up with your best friend… your phone. I was a victim of your one-liners. And so, disappointment never left my side. Well, at least I still have the show… my last shot. Or so I thought. It was our FM but it turned out to be your show. During our portions on the show, I tried so hard to let you see me.. to get you through me, but even at the time where I was supposed to be in the spotlight, she still took that spotlight from me… for it was still her that I see in your eyes… yes, even during OUR SHOW. But the brilliant actor in you prevailed that our fans didn’t see what I was seeing. Not to mention all the fan service you (and eventually made me do so too) gave them. You even went to the extent of asking me “You’re an eel, aren’t you?” when you said your girlfriend is an eel. But I know you were talking about her… your number one eel.

And so, not only disappointment accompanied me but pain had to join in too. At our show in Osaka, I decided to take my last attempt. But is bad luck my twin too? For towards the end of the show, you were extra giddy and rejoicing too much. And then I knew why… she came and I saw how you treated her and how she took care of you. And that just got me. You just don’t know how much I wanted to be her at that moment, that second she sat on your lap and you hugging her when we were back stage… that when we said goodbye to our fans, my tears just had to fall.

You were such a gentleman to invite me over at your Appa’s birthday celebration but heck, I had no place there. That was hers. So I had to pass.

And then again, disappointment, pain, and frustration went with me back home. Even up to the day I decided to fly here to New York to study. Yeah, you got it right. Studying was just an excuse… a lame excuse to the fact that I flew here so I could get away from you both… most especially from you. It was painful seeing you or hearing about you back home, so I had to run away… run away from the truth. But this is better… I guess it would stop the rumors and scandal between you and I… so she would stop getting hurt too, especially from anti’s on my side.

I thought I had escaped from your shadow but even here in the U.S., I can’t help but get affected and infected by the epidemic you brought to our industry back home… the Hallyu epidemia.

And so here I am, thousands of miles away, missing you and feeling the pain all over again. That is the bad thing. But hey, there’s still one good thing about all of these crap. The good thing is you’ll never know all the things I just wrote… you will never have one single idea of how I feel. For this email won’t get to you and it WILL NEVER get to you, JANG KEUN SUK. This will just go straight to my trash folder and be emptied permanently after putting all my might in writing it… after wasting all my tears and internet hours… you will just never know. I just had to let it out or I’d go crazy thinking about you and the effect you bring to me.

This is it Keun Suk-ah. This is goodbye. For it was even you who brought the sign to me, saying Mo-Gyul died the day our drama ended. I realized I have to let go now. Annyeong Keun Suk-ah. It was one hell of a roller coaster ride. Komawo for the friendship you’ve given me. I am also saying goodbye and throwing away this foolish love I have for you now.

Jalga Keun Suk-ah. Say goodbye to Shin Hye-ssi for me too…

**This one is for you again Demi and Cassie!**

Apologies

Today is such a gloomy day. It’s too cold here in New York tonight and I got nothing to do. I alone in my room in my apartment. It’s all too quiet and the silence had me thinking.

Eottoke? My heart is breaking tonight and reality is setting in. So I’ve decided to write to you.. at last.

Have I ever told you how lucky you are? Hah! I guess not for we never even talked… not once. You attempted to get close to me. “Annyeonghaseyo Geun Young Eonnie” you called to me once in one of your visits at the Marry Me Mary set during one of your vacations from Taiwan. But I just smiled and went on my way. Not even a wave. For seeing you just adds to my pain… what more if I talk to you. But… deep in my heart, dongsaeng, I envy you… wished I was in your place too many times. And because of that desire to take over your place, I hurt you. Not once, not twice… but oh, so many times. But that bounced back to me girl. For in those attempts to win the heart that belonged to you, I brought pain to him too. I can’t count the times he told me to keep my distance from him anymore… that you were getting hurt so he subtly asked me to step off a bit. He told me he can’t afford to lose you again, and he even apologized because our friendship was affected and that I hope I understand. I understood and I feel his pain so I had to stay away…

And that hurt. More painful than the day he told me no matter what and how much I try, he can never have a change of heart. That was the day we had to shoot our alley kiss. And boy! That so helped in my acting. Thank God he didn’t notice the pain because of that scene.

But the pain left a scar in my heart… till this very day, the scar etched deep. And I still wince over the pain it brings here and there once in a while (like it does now). But together with that pain, I knew deep in my heart I have to say sorry…to you.

Mianhe… jeongmal mianhe… for all the pain I brought you and your relationship. I was blinded by my love… my love for him. But I can see clearly now. Though when I look back, I regret not getting close to him when I had the chance to capture his heart years ago when we first met. But I guess, we weren’t meant to be. For yes, I can see it clearly now, that it’s written in the stars that you two be together… forever. And you truly deserve to be called the FATED COUPLE… because fate has brought you together and I guess only death can tear you apart now.

Like I said, you’re so lucky Shin Hye-ah. Lucky to have Keun Suk in your life. For he loves you with all his heart and he can put his life on the line for you. That’s how great his love is. I know. He has told me zillions of times. But then again, he is lucky too. For you Shin Hye… you sacrificed too much for him… for your love. You even took the beating at times from his fans, which eventually made you stronger. I salute you. And yes, Keun Suk is lucky because not even I can surpass the love you have for him… no one will. Anyone can see this, and as I’ve told you, I’m not blinded now.

Annyeong, Shin Hye-ah. I hope you have forgiven me for everything I caused you. It’s just unlucky that we had to love one man. My sincerest apologies for all the pain I and my fans brought you. Good luck to you and Keun Suk. Continue to stand the test of time like you have been doing. Wish me luck too, dongsaeng. Send my regards to Jang Keun Suk and tell him that I’d be just fine.

Hi Pam!!

Thanks a lot for dedicating "Acceptance" and "Apologies" to me (and cass)....geez..love them...love them!!

You know that i enjoy reading your Fan Fics but these 2 i like very much....and u know why....hahahahahhahaha...

The 2 chapters are so aptly written...I should guess by now that she has accepted the fact that it was a "doomed love" from the very start.... he he he...*smiling while writing this*......

Keep up the good work and looking forward to more....!!

waaaaaaahhhhhhhh! love this ff.. nice one ateh pam.. more please ahahahaha LOL :D *kilig*

It brought tears to my eyes sis!!
really brought out what hacci would have felt on seeing Suk in that state..
pls cont ur good work!!!

Sis Pam,

Daebak!!! sis for another beautiful fanfic...reading your fanfic is like reading the true story of our KS Couples...thank you for always sharing your fanfic with us...I really love this one like it really happening with them...Suk getting sick and need IV and She need Shin Hye badly...wow you made me cry...cry all out while reading your fanfic...Its like I watch my favorite Teleserye BUDOY which made my cry everynight...

Again thank you ....thank you sis Pam...want some more hope you will going to write again ASAP...hahaha...

...witwhew!!!... such a perfect scene for our perfect couple!...totoong totoo talaga, thank you Pam for sharing your talent with us, it really brought joyful tears and a hopeful heart for us...let's all continue praying for their love to survive ...everyday....♥

I love it.. it's feel like real.. i smile and cry while reading it.. daebak!! sis pam..

Looking forward for your next Fanfic..

thanks pam for this wonderful fanfic!..godbless u always!

PAMMMMMM sis.....why you do this to me.... why why my dear sis....BITIN.... lol

i love your stories please continue to write them... i hope this really happens SOON!!!! they are so cute together ahhhhh spazzing right now with fantasies maybe i should write my own?lol

It has been a long time since I started a new story for the couple. My Autumn Concierto is still in the works in fact but that is on hold right now as I was inspired by a great Hollywood movie "The Lakehouse" for this new one..


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Please watch out for more! Thanks! ^_^

sis pam, i'm so looking forward to your new fanfic. i'm your avid fan, hahahahaha